About the Book
Kenny is not a violent man.
He is a husband. A professional. A witness to things he cannot explain.
When a series of deaths begins to surface near the river he walks each day, Kenny is forced to confront a truth more unsettling than guilt: he keeps arriving after the damage is done. He remembers too little. He feels responsible for too much.
As memory fractures and time begins to slip, Kenny creates a version of himself capable of holding what the rest of him cannot. This other self does not kill—but it stays. It cleans. It watches. It carries the weight of what Kenny believes must be his fault.
As police close in and the past resurfaces, Kenny must choose between the safety of forgetting and the terror of full awareness. Because survival, he learns, is not the same as innocence—and remembering may be the most dangerous act of all.
I Am Still Here is a quiet, unsettling psychological novel about identity, responsibility, and the stories we tell ourselves in order to remain present in a world that does harm.
Book Details
- Format: Paperback | E-book
- Length: 150 pages
- Trim Size: 5 × 7 inches
- Genre: Fiction / Literary / Psychological Thriller
- Publisher: Tanya B. Publishing
- ISBN: 979-8-9944591-1-9
Excerpt
Kenny learned early that memory was unreliable.
Some days arrived fully formed, with weight and consequence. Others slipped past him quietly, leaving only the sense that something had been misplaced. He learned not to chase the missing pieces. Looking too closely had a way of changing things.
He walked the river every morning, following the same path, counting the same steps. The water moved on without hesitation. It did not ask him to remember it. It did not wait.
It was easier to believe that whatever had been lost would stay lost.
That belief lasted until the day he arrived after the damage had already been done.
Included with Limited Editions
Each limited hand-bound copy includes two bookmarks — one featuring I Am Still Here, and one highlighting titles from across Tanya B. Publishing. A small thank-you for supporting independent publishing.